I can still remember the conversation with a friend who’s husband had been battling a debilitating disease for years. It had come to the point that he was no longer able to carry out his job and was forced to retire from a very lucrative position. And besides that, his physical ability to care for himself was slowly dwindling…and the job of caregiving was now on her shoulders. I remember the conversation because of her candidness…she was angry. Angry at the disease that was taking the love of her life away from her…and angry at the prospects of the burden she would be bearing on her own to care for him. But what had her so very upset wasn’t her anger, but the shame she felt because of it. Her rational was, “How can I dare be angry when it’s him that’s suffering?” When we become caregivers for a loved one we’re not immune to suffering right along with them…but then we also suffer privately in completely different ways. But the good news is that God looks inward, not outward…or as Psalm 139:23 says, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” God sees our heart, not the troubled, worried, and stressed ideas that roll around in our head. And He knew this woman’s heart and the deep love & commitment she had for her husband.
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